Real Life at 36 weeks

So I always try to take prego pictures on the rare 

occasion that I actually get dressed.. I am in sweats and 

Matt's biggest t-shirt most of the time and when

I do get dressed I get back into sweats as fast as 

humanly possible.. 

I realized today that I should take a picture of the every 

day prego me.. It's not pretty, but this is real life right now and one day when I'm not pregnant I'm probably gonna enjoy looking 

back and being like, "thank goodness that's over!" 

haha jk its not that bad.. kind of ha

Doesn't get much more real then this haha 

my sweats and the t-shirt that I wear basically ever single

day except for when I finally break down and wash it haha

it's the comfiest and one of the only t-shirts that still fits..

My messy house in the background, my hair that hasn't been washed, (or brushed) 

and my toddler that I never dressed 

because jammies are so handy and warm.  And I'm lazy and it's cold! 

I think the best part of these pictures is when Micah came into the room and saw me taking pictures he ran up to the mirror,  pointed and said oh! that's cute! hahaha I'll pretend he's talking about me.. Even though cute is about the farthest from what I feel right about now.

Well future self.. I hope you have things figured out with two kids 

and are able to start working out again and taking care of yourself..

But seriously. I miss working out! The plan was to work out till the day I had this  baby.. But I've had to resign myself to the fact that, that's just not going  to happen.  I can barely make it through a quarter of the things I'd like to do each day

without dying.. Let alone trying to work out haha

What do I mean by dying? Well when I do too much my stomach starts to feel  like it is literally going to split open.  Maybe that's normal, but it's painful and no fun!  My right hip starts to kill as if all the weight of this baby is on that hip alone haha

And the newest fun thing is my scar from my c-section BURNING!  Not a good feeling haha I called the nurse about that one (my first call to the nurse this pregnancy!) and she said as long as it doesn't start up again it's probably fine, but

to try and stay off my feet and take it easy for like three days. 

blahh So today I did the dishes and made some pancakes and by the time I got  done with that the burning was starting to come back.  So I have done a lot of sitting around since then

So all of those fun things happen, but I am just SO tired and emotional these days too.  And walking around and doing stuff isn't the only things my body can't handle.

I also can't sit for too long or lay down in one position for very long! haha!! It's so funny. Church last week just about killed me.. Seriously just trying to sit for three hours

took me the rest of the day to recover from ha 

Towards the end I started getting really emotional.  But hey church is a pretty good  place to cry.. Nobody will judge haha In my last meeting I missed Matt SO bad!! (he teaches primary the last two hours of church) plus I was cramping, and hurting,

and yea.. good times. 

At my last appointment they checked me for the first time and nothing is happening! Which is good.. We don't want anything to happen right now..  But it just goes

to show that all those braxton hicks really are good for nothing haha

But this sweet baby just kicks me all the time still and it brings me so much peace of mind!

Seems to be that he is healthy and happy in there and I'm so glad! 

I can't believe I'm so close to having this little guy!! 

Oh by the way he is definitely head down!! Yay!! I was thinking that he was, but two 

different midwives have confirmed it now.  

So sleeping.. That's been an adventure! I feel like 

I already have a newborn

because I'm usually up at least every four hours..

 Sometimes two haha And when I sleep for longer then that it's a miracle! Like last night I slept for like eight hours without getting up!!! So crazy. And awesome.  Some mornings I can't wait to get up just cause I'm hurting so bad.  

So far February is WAY colder and snowier then 

January was! I am so over 

winter.  A big part of it is that I feel so bad for Micah.  The cold combined with my pregnantness makes leaving the house really hard, and I feel like he probably gets so bored! I just wish I could at least let him go play outside in the yard.. 

but it has like two feet of snow and he refuses to wear his snow gear.  We went out to a little store the other day and he was grumpy and I can't really chase him around and loading him into the car is hard.. So yea I tried, but it was kind of a fail ha

So basically the point is that winter needs to end!!! but it doesn't look like it's even close to ending haha

I'm getting really excited to not be pregnant soon.  I know it will be a while before I'm recovered enough to do anything, but even going on a walk or taking Micah to a park sounds so amazing at this point!! haha 

Anyways there is a whole bunch of super random facts about life right now. Matt has been working some long days, due to a conference and so I think I just

needed somewhere to vent a little.  My blog is probably pretty good birthcontrol at this point!! haha It's all worth it though.  I wouldn't change being prego I'm just

so glad that I have the ability to be pregnant and that I can be a mom to these sweet boys!!

Sometimes complaining gets me through.. So I'm sorry for everyone that has to deal with that haha